July 20, 2010


Whenever I talk about my 5 year life sentence, people wind up telling me either that this is they way everyone should live their life or that it is a wake up call, or something else very similar. Something about modern life has taken our mortality and made far too invisible. We hide it behind […]

Worse than Dying

July 14, 2010


Sometime in the next fiveish years my kidneys will die. This is a fact. I will go on dialysis and hope for the longest life I can get from merging my life with that of a machine. My kidneys dying will not kill me. I will exist longer due to technology. As I have been […]

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The Before it is too Late World Tour

July 13, 2010


It came to me this morning. This is what I am naming my impending travels. Now to form an itinerary and get towards making it reality. You know… before it is too late.

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July 12, 2010


Frankly, I am full of them. My immediate response to the five year time frame was that I need to see all the stuff in the world that I have always dreamed of seeing. I need to travel till I simply cannot anymore. But this brings up so many questions. How do I quit life […]

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Bonus Time

July 11, 2010


When I first heard that I had fiveish years till my kidneys failed three weeks ago, my pores clenched. My skin turned to diamond. I turned off. I had tried to prepare myself for the worst news possible for the past year, but found myself incapable of  dealing with this news. Five years… Yet 18 months ago, […]

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